Good news! I’m no longer working the overnight shift.
There’s been a lot of change in my life since June 1. Instead of freaking out, I chose to roll with the punches and practice what I preach. Cliches aside…here’s what that means:
- Instead of pressuring myself to keep up, I just let things go without claw marks.
- I slept, I ate, I showered, I exercised, and I handled the most top-priority things without beating myself up for all that didn’t get done.
- I stopped caring about whether things got done or not.
Therefore, I achieved some liberation. How did I let go this much? I had to let God, spirituality, AA, and Reiki step in for help. I had to lean on friends pretty hard, harder than ever before.
Here’s what happened. In detail. I’m sharing this because I do think Reiki steps in to guide the path of our lives once we choose this way of life. Once we choose to let Source Energy do its job, there’s nothing we are doing anymore to guide it. We will be lead onto our true, authentic path and everything else will fall away. We are truly powerless. I learn this over and over again.
In June, I lost my great-aunt and my grandfather. These two losses opened up some karma issues I had to deal with. They were a long time coming. This alone uprooted me enough. Oh, but God (or whatever you choose to call it: Higher Power, Source, Mind, Buddha, Universe, Goddess etc) wasn’t done with me yet. My cat had a seizure and a kidney problem; more issues in my life were uprooted. Somewhere between my great-aunt dying, the cat’s illness, and my grandfather dying — I crashed mentally, physically, and emotionally. I saw my Reiki Master, Donna Jestmore, for a curative 90-minute massage and took time out for serious self-care.
It steeled me for the next bomb to drop. And drop, it did. Next, my unemployment ran out. Gone. Done. Goodbye — and short on its final payment with no warning. I thought I had another month; I thought working my part-time job and claiming that income would stretch it. Perhaps it did. But the UI benefits ran out. Through some grace of God, as always, I lucked into a full-time job at the company where I have been working since February, Substance Abuse Center of Kansas (SACK). Then I began working the overnight shift at detox/sobering. I’d been working afternoons at Crossover Recovery Center as a peer mentor with clients who were already sober. More change in my work and a huge lifestyle change as I went to overnights.
I found out pretty quickly it was all I could do to sleep, eat, shower, and –for my sanity– exercise. It wasn’t all bad. I got in touch with my heart and realized I have another half-marathon in me. I’m shooting for Prairie Fire this October.
On Running + Reiki: I initially took up running after I began learning Reiki because I discovered I needed to do something to move all that new energy that was coming through me, as well as my own energy I had suddenly become conscious of. I learned on overnights that the feeling of exercise made me feel happy and refreshed and that I was finally choosing to exercise for the enjoyment of it and not for any other reason. I used to exercise if I was unhappy about my weight or appearance. I used to exercise therefore out of shame or guilt, or to escape the reality of my life. But I realized as I worked overnights and found myself at the gym at 3:00 a.m. that I was doing it simply for the love. I felt like my addictive relationship with exercise no longer existed; it was like the realization hit and all the negative feelings regarding exercise in my past went up in a puff of smoke.
So back into running it is. That is the only productive/positive by product of the overnight shift!
This brings me to the present and the next changes to come… One day, one step at a time, folks! That’s how this thing called life gets done. I’m anxious to get back to my regular writing and voice work schedule as well as my regular Reiki schedule… Good Lord, I *do* do a lot of things… I’m a type A personality — pretty typical of any addict. Maybe typical of Reiki Masters too as I find we’re very diverse, dynamic, Type A, multi-talented people who tend to suck the marrow out of life. We all seem to be renaissance people for sure!
First things first, I’ll be back to my regular schedule at White Dove this week. I’ve done Tuesday/Wednesday afternoons since May 2014 and I was hating the idea that I might have to re-do hundreds of flyers… I love my flyers! Haha.
So, as always, call the store at 316-262-3683 to book a session or email me at youdeservereki [at] gmail [dot] com.
Hoping to get back onto my more “normal” schedule now. Thankful Reiki, prayer, friends, my recovery community, my Reiki community, etc, have helped me get through everything since June 1. Lots of death, grief, mourning, change, and self-care… I survived. Life is different. Again. And Again…